Thursday, October 27, 2005

willie nelson sings it quite nicely

The Rainbow Connection

Why are there so many songs about rainbows?
And what's on the other side?
Rainbows are visions, but only illusions
And rainbows have nothing to hide.

So we've been told, and some choose to believe it
I know they're wrong, wait and see.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers and me.

Who said that every wish would be heard and answered
When wished on a morning star?
Somebody thought of that, and someone believed it.
Look what it's done so far.

What's so amazing that keeps us stargazing,
And what do we think we might see?
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

--All of us, under its spell.
We know that it's probably Magic

Have you been half asleep, and have you heard voices?
I've heard them calling my name.
Is this the sweet sound, that calls the young sailors?
The voice might be one and the same.

I've heard it too many times to ignore it.
It's something that I'm s'posed to be.
Someday we'll find it, the rainbow connection,
The lovers, the dreamers, and me.

i have learned to speak cat pt. 3

i couldn't sleep. my bed feels empty and silent. i've gotten used to paul, sleeping diagonal, gotten used to the warmth and i was awake at five in the morning, wide awake. betty sits at the foot of my bed. she's been there all night, happy to get her spot back, the spot she's had for most of her short life, sacrificed over the last 8 months for my relationship. she faces my room, on lookout.

i decide to do stuff on the internet or watch t.v.. i can't just sit here anymore. it's too quiet. i get out of bed and then get back in quickly, my legs can't handle the cold air. hmmm.. quiet. don't want to turn on t.v., too loud. too abrasive right now. i lay under four layers of covers, my hands crossed on my belly. i start to stress about everything that i stress about. all of it. my brain goes from one thought to the next because i have enough self control to not let myself linger on one particular stress.

betty starts to get anxious because i'm anxious. she stretches, yawns, walks over and sits on my chest. she looks at me. i give her a little pet then push her off, there is no way i will fall asleep with her loud, fat purs right by my head.

she sniffs around the room and i snap at her, for keeping me up. she knows what she's doing. she finally leaves my room. i start to drift back asleep.

flip, flip, flip, flip.

sally, pawing a magazine.

i wake up knowing right away what it is. "psssssst, sally" i saw in the mean voice. she looks up at me. "come here" i say and i snap a bunch of times. she walks over to the end of my bed, looks up at me. finally she jumps up onto the bed. she crawls under the blankets and curls up next to me.

i look at my clock, about an hour before i wanted to wake up. i reset my alarm clock and try for sleep again.

Monday, October 24, 2005

bjm is the aod

paul and i watched being john malkovich on saturday night. it's a pretty interesting and unusual movie. the best part is that cameron diaz's hair is a frizz bomb. you don't see enough leading ladies with frizz bomb hair. however, her husband lusts for the woman with straight, shiny, perfectly frizz-free brown hair.


anyway, i thought of this just a bit ago when i went to the bathroom and encountered my own frizz bomb. but, it's something i should be used to by now after 25 1/2 years.

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

top 10

10. benji's drunk, 30th birthday top 10.

9. utilizing itunes for organizing music.

8. shortly after discovering itunes wonderful paul surprises me with random gift of iPod shuffle!

7. two weeks after receiving ipod shuffle commit ipod shuffle manslaughter when ipod hid inside hooded sweatshirt on laundry day. :-(

6. made wonderful dinner for kelsey, julie and paul in memory of iPod. bbq mock duck, hot & spicy greens and brown rice. yum.

5. kelsey now lives 9 blocks away. would walk to her house listening to ipod shuffle.

4. attended minnesota coalition for the homeless two day conference in alexandria, mn. belittles importance of ipod manslaughter.

3. beautiful evening walks around south minneapolis with amelia, back in minneapolis from czech republic.

2. getting ready for kick ass halloween. looking for costume ideas. suggestions appreciated.

1. kite flying in grand marais on lake superior a few weeks ago. gorgeous, really. super happy day with julie and paul. yea!